ZnO³

Wrought-up every thinking of her, and circumvent my inadequate act, therefore, I’d do anything for her.

For you to be had, honey. Together, entwine forever. I promise it never whiteout, dear.

Alike novelette, progressive to another page, leaving out staggering melancholy about the 23rd, not getting older yet being more mature…

Alike an old parchment, blank with a bit torn on its edge due the age, have nothing to write on it, perhaps waiting to be written…

This isn’t the peak of my life story, it just left the introduction chapter, leading to the beginning… A happy beginning…

Anomaly is interesting for me, this misterious things is make me take my breathe away, I do believe in God. Im living in one of countless star in this universe, always thinking are there another living being exist out there? Isn’t this universe is too enormousfor us? Living cycle in outer space is quite similiar with us, life, death, birth, the difference is time, and space. I love astronomy since I was kid, naked science and something like that, not just a hobby but more important than that, at first it began from curiosity, until now… I don’t have a “finally” only “at first”

Fix your eyes on my direction, what are you thinking? A stranger? Or somone what you would love forever, well at least until next morning. Am I wanted too much from? Trust! Take your grasp out of me, well at least loosen a bit, I just need some space to breathe, stop asking me to count to infinite, well at least to a million then I could make it.

… (silence)

… (he is astonished)

… (he is thinking)

… (he is speechless)

… (he is amazed)

ENOUGH!!!!!!!! (I guess he is trashed)

Been a couple of years, my unorganized life… Hopping around from a place to another, stagnant until the time has come, is it now? The simplest thing would be this and that, a bit of chit chat, and it seems to be easy but yeah it should be easy, least beautiful if it started from this optimism. Would I be remembered when I die? will somebody mention my name, or being whatchamacallit?

It haunting me, if it so even in my dream… What should I do if I keep on moving, I couldn’t awake from it, can’t make even on it, confronting this rediculous being is spechless… Because its my own mind numbing…

Shut the *up, or should I spell it out for you again? I don’t get any anger management program, so be it! Oh my numbing tale whispered on my ear, what have I terribly wrong to get this * thing? And this son of a * is keep doing this, I wonder why, lord please calm my self of this * hormone or whatever. If trust isn’t enough, so whats this all about from the first place then?

Revivified my tempest, revitalize my tense.

Disambiguation of a true affection that sketch veil over my heart.

Never been psyched like this before, my simply faith, my merely courage, my only hope.

Yet fate shackled severely.

This luminaire, miraculously retain the luminance, even without the fluorescent lamp, in an endless lunations.

I love you more than I can say.

- ZnO³ on February 28th, 2009. 11:39AM

Feeling loss…

Previously pleasing, formerly seamless.

Emitting misery…

Dimmed and decayed, steadily.

Nobody around and I’m unoccupied, I need you, yet I smile desperately…

It makes me the finest among those hypocrites…

Deserted by my own, my dearest damsel…

But I adore you unconditionally, honey…

That could be something that made me live at this time…

It’s sustainable, and I wonder…

…how long would this last

- ZnO³ on February 27th, 2009. 10:13PM